Getting Started

For what seems like the thousandth time, I’m getting started.

By that, I mean that I’m starting over as best as I can but without scrapping anything and everything that I’ve ever done. That includes Game Over, a manga I’ve been working on for most of my adult life.

I decided to create this blog to help me document my journey. It was something I used to do on Live Journal back when I first started creating art back in 2006. Back then, I thought that people would actually want to read what I wrote, would love the characters I created, and would want to follow my journey. Despite everything over the past 15 years showing me that my assumption was correct, I listened to abusive people who told me it was “cringy” to share my story online or that it would “be a waste of time” or that I was a “waste of time”, a “waste of space”.

After you hear those kinds of things for most of your life, it’s hard not to believe them. It’s hard to not let them affect your work.

But I don’t believe them anymore. And they have no control over my work anymore.

I’ve surrounded myself with positive people and have found what I call my “inner child” again. That part of me was never lost, despite all the hurt and abuse I’ve survived. That part of me sees the world through different lenses, like I did when I was six or twelve. It’s a part of myself I fought so very hard to protect and, somehow, I did.

2021 was about doing everything that people who abused me told me not to do. I wanted to see what would happen. Would things really fall apart as they foretold? Would things really be so catastrophic with my work, my art?

The answer: no. They were wrong.

So, I present to you a blog, revived from the depths of 2009, when I made my last post on Live Journal. I can’t promise daily updates or anything insightful or inspiring. I can’t promise good writing.

What I can promise is positivity and the story of my journey from here forward as I take the proverbial first step - again.

Thank you all for joining me. Thank you for supporting me for years. Thank you for being honest with me.

I look forward to sharing with you.